There was a man and woman that met each other for the first time sitting right behind me while we were flying somewhere. Before the plane door was closed and the attendants prepared for cross-check (yup I’m kinda hip on the in flight lingo), these two people were becoming bff’s.
The other night I had a Timmons First! After my show, I was out at my merch table meeting people and loving the interactions when an older gentleman walked up. I went to shake his hand and with a sort of smile he said, “I thought what you did tonight was terrible. You sounded terrible. It was too loud. Nope I didn’t like a thing you did tonight…
With a great deal of effort Julie lifted her head and her trembling hand to wave hello. This was not going to be your average meet & greet; this was going to be a game changer. Daily I’m asking Jesus to open my eyes to see where He’s moving and for the courage to lean in, to love well, and to be a learner. Here you go Timmons. Game on
Picture this: Night #1. I’m playing in an arena in front of thousands of people on the biggest tour of my life. As I walked off stage, I was followed by an extremely influential industry executive who leaned into me pretty hard about my set needing work, etc. He was right in his assessment and I’m grateful that he cared enough about me and saw enough potential in me to shoot straight and hard even if it was painful to hear.
For the next 5 days my soul went dark. I stressed out so hard on my set that I forgot that Jesus was on the move in and around me. Every night I became more and more consumed by how many CD’s I wasn’t selling. I lost sight of all that I had signed onto this tour for. And so the war of 2 kingdoms continued. “Seek First the Kingdom Of Timmons…” 4 Timothy 1:1 became my life verse.
How quickly I had lost all perspective, all mission, all vision of my main objective: to simply follow Jesus into the work of His Kingdom. How quickly my old prayers of “Jesus would you bless what I am doing…” came back and how quickly it became all about me.
Jesus’ purpose for me on this tour, at home, at work, and even as I sit here on this plane is consistent and simple. He says “Follow Me.” In these past few years the practicality of following Jesus has seemed to start with an awareness of His nearness and movements. What if we aren’t supposed to ask Jesus to join us in what we are doing but to ask Him to show us where He is moving and how we could join Him in it. In the everyday mundane routines of our lives, what if we tried asking Jesus to open up doors for His Kingdom sake and for the eyes to see where He is moving. That was how Paul prayed every time he went to a new city. “Jesus would YOU open doors for Your good news to be seen and heard.” This simplicity has been my aim and joy in this past season until little distractions cloud my pure and simple devotion to follow Jesus (2 Cor. 11:3-4).
So after the 5 days of reading and living out a miserable existence of 4 Timothy 1:1, I prayed with great sobriety the same prayer that I’ve been praying for the past 3 years: ”I surrender all… would you let my kingdom fall. So Yours alone will be the only one standing.”
Since then I’ve found the gift of Joy again and watched Jesus open doors all over the place for things that lift up His Kingdom. Jesus keep reminding us of Your nearness!
In our new life adventure, I’m traveling all over the country as a “New Recording Artist” performing concerts, leading worship, touring radio stations, etc all with the hope of making it? I need to feed my family, which is funded by making it, but what does making it actually mean?
My purpose is to influence the church, inviting believers about Jesus to become followers of Jesus through my story. This has been so specifically prescribed by Jesus to Hilary and me that we are clearer than we’ve ever been. Yet where’s the line between telling Jesus what He should do and letting Jesus open the doors that He has for me to walk through in the name of influence for His Kingdom sake?
So for me, is selling a ton of albums, playing bigger venues, having a #1 radio hit a valid sign of making it? Well yes and no. I’m seeing that, defining the “IT” is becoming more and more crucial. For us in this season, the making “IT” is defined by Influencing the church (people) for the Kingdom’s sake, not ours. The daily battle is between building my kingdom and building into Jesus’. What’s my role and what’s Gods? Sure I work my butt off trying to write great songs, recording the best possible versions of them, blogging, traveling all over the place performing powerful concerts and leading worship, telling my story and keeping the vision I’ve been given at the forefront of everyone involved (label, management, radio gatekeepers, etc). Who’s in charge of the outcome of my hard work? Who’s in charge of the outcome of the “IT”?
Jesus simply says “Follow me. Don’t worry about tomorrow, I know what I’m doing. I bring you the good news of My Kingdom where I am King and you are not but I’m good and always at work in and through your stuff. Do not focus on things that moths and rust will destroy. Focus on me and I will give you rest. I am your treasure that you seek. I am your great reward. I am enough. Because of the love that I have for you and show you, love, love, love your neighbor. Because of the way I have served you, serve each other well. Don’t be like the Pharisees that do all the right religious things on the outside but don’t know me on the inside. Walk with me…Follow me and I will make you fishers of men. I am the way, I am the truth, I am the life that you are striving for. I AM ‘IT’!”
What are you striving after? Who’s in charge of the outcome?
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