No Other Name

No Other Name

There was a man and woman that met each other for the first time sitting right behind me while we were flying somewhere. Before the plane door was closed and the attendants prepared for cross-check (yup I’m kinda hip on the in flight lingo), these two people were becoming bff’s. 

Larry, My Enemy

Larry, My Enemy

The other night I had a Timmons First! After my show, I was out at my merch table meeting people and loving the interactions when an older gentleman walked up. I went to shake his hand and with a sort of smile he said, “I thought what you did tonight was terrible. You sounded terrible. It was too loud. Nope I didn’t like a thing you did tonight…

A Sea Of Stories

A Sea Of Stories

When you stand in front of a group of people, are you thinking about them as individuals with stories or just as a sea of people? More often than not as I’ve lead 10’s of thousands of people or 10’s of people, I hate to admit it but I’ve not seen the people for who they are. 

It’s Not Scary….

It’s Not Scary….

With a great deal of effort Julie lifted her head and her trembling hand to wave hello. This was not going to be your average meet & greet; this was going to be a game changer. Daily I’m asking Jesus to open my eyes to see where He’s moving and for the courage to lean in, to love well, and to be a learner. Here you go Timmons. Game on

I Forgot That Jesus Was On The Move

Picture this: Night #1.  I’m playing in an arena in front of thousands of people on the biggest tour of my life. As I walked off stage, I was followed by an extremely influential industry executive who leaned into me pretty hard about my set needing work, etc. He was right in his assessment and I’m grateful that he cared enough about me and saw enough potential in me to shoot straight and hard even if it was painful to hear. 

For the next 5 days my soul went dark. I stressed out so hard on my set that I forgot that Jesus was on the move in and around me. Every night I became more and more consumed by how many CD’s I wasn’t selling. I lost sight of all that I had signed onto this tour for. And so the war of 2 kingdoms continued.  “Seek First the Kingdom Of Timmons…” 4 Timothy 1:1 became my life verse. 

How quickly I had lost all perspective, all mission, all vision of my main objective: to simply follow Jesus into the work of His Kingdom. How quickly my old prayers of “Jesus would you bless what I am doing…” came back and how quickly it became all about me.

Jesus’ purpose for me on this tour, at home, at work, and even as I sit here on this plane is consistent and simple. He says “Follow Me.” In these past few years the practicality of following Jesus has seemed to start with an awareness of His nearness and movements. What if we aren’t supposed to ask Jesus to join us in what we are doing but to ask Him to show us where He is moving and how we could join Him in it. In the everyday mundane routines of our lives, what if we tried asking Jesus to open up doors for His Kingdom sake and for the eyes to see where He is moving. That was how Paul prayed every time he went to a new city. “Jesus would YOU open doors for Your good news to be seen and heard.” This simplicity has been my aim and joy in this past season until little distractions cloud my pure and simple devotion to follow Jesus (2 Cor. 11:3-4).

So after the 5 days of reading and living out a miserable existence of 4 Timothy 1:1, I prayed with great sobriety the same prayer that I’ve been praying for the past 3 years: ”I surrender all… would you let my kingdom fall. So Yours alone will be the only one standing.” 

Since then I’ve found the gift of Joy again and watched Jesus open doors all over the place for things that lift up His Kingdom. Jesus keep reminding us of Your nearness!

What if it works? I hope it works!

In our new life adventure, I’m traveling all over the country as a “New Recording Artist” performing concerts, leading worship, touring radio stations, etc all with the hope of making it?  I need to feed my family, which is funded by making it, but what does making it actually mean?

My purpose is to influence the church, inviting believers about Jesus to become followers of Jesus through my story. This has been so specifically prescribed by Jesus to Hilary and me that we are clearer than we’ve ever been. Yet where’s the line between telling Jesus what He should do and letting Jesus open the doors that He has for me to walk through in the name of influence for His Kingdom sake?

So for me, is selling a ton of albums, playing bigger venues, having a #1 radio hit a valid sign of making it? Well yes and no. I’m seeing that, defining the “IT” is becoming more and more crucial. For us in this season, the makingIT” is defined by Influencing the church (people) for the Kingdom’s sake, not ours. The daily battle is between building my kingdom and building into Jesus’. What’s my role and what’s Gods? Sure I work my butt off trying to write great songs, recording the best possible versions of them, blogging, traveling all over the place performing powerful concerts and leading worship, telling my story and keeping the vision I’ve been given at the forefront of everyone involved (label, management, radio gatekeepers, etc). Who’s in charge of the outcome of my hard work? Who’s in charge of the outcome of the “IT”?

 Jesus simply says “Follow me. Don’t worry about tomorrow, I know what I’m doing. I bring you the good news of My Kingdom where I am King and you are not but I’m good and always at work in and through your stuff. Do not focus on things that moths and rust will destroy. Focus on me and I will give you rest. I am your treasure that you seek. I am your great reward. I am enough. Because of the love that I have for you and show you, love, love, love your neighbor. Because of the way I have served you, serve each other well. Don’t be like the Pharisees that do all the right religious things on the outside but don’t know me on the inside. Walk with me…Follow me and I will make you fishers of men. I am the way, I am the truth, I am the life that you are striving for. I AM ‘IT’!”

What are you striving after? Who’s in charge of the outcome?

Pro American Christian

Ready for this?:
I may be one of the better American Christian guys you’ll meet. I’ve got the
knowledge, pedigree, talent, time spent in the trenches of ‘ministry’, and a ‘holiness’
history to prove it. I know how to ‘do church’ with the best of them. My friends that
have known me the longest would agree with my opening statement and would in
fact tell you that I could be on the varsity team as an American Christian...I could go
Pro! How’s that for an awesome intro.
I must say, in these past 4 years I have felt more and more like the apostle Paul when
he basically said...”I am one of the greater Jews around. The “Hebrew of Hebrews”...
knowledge/pedigree etc... but it all means nothing next to knowing and following
Jesus.” Literally all of Paul’s righteousness equals a pile of skubala...(yup Paul cussed
in Greek).
In this past season Hilary and I’ve had the gift of sobering up from religiously “doing
church” and been faced with the simplicity of following Jesus as His church. I
honestly feel like I’m enrolling in preschool as a follower of Jesus and am daily
watching the words of Jesus wage war on my default button of American Christianity.
I will expound more on this in future posts, but I am constantly blown away at my
success as a “Christian” but my failure as a follower of Jesus.
Recently I’ve had a few friends come to me and sheepishly admit the same strong
indictment. They’ve said, “I can talk about Jesus all day long. I can give you facts and
reasoning for what He said, did and the why behind it all,” and here’s where it gets
good, “but I don’t know if I actually know Him.” Have you ever felt that? Do you
presently?
Each time these friends have shared this with me, I’m sure they were not expecting
my response. I simply smile as if I know exactly where they’re coming from and
welcome them to preschool with me! All to say, here’s my invitation : Come to preschool
with me and let’s figure out how tosimply know Jesus and follow Him. Preschool is way more fun!

 

Philippians 1:21

A month prior to my life changing diagnosis of cancer, Jesus began preparing me.
Every sermon, Bible study, devotional, small group curriculum, etc. seemed to point
to the same place. There are those rare moments in life that I’ve been able to identify
a clear message from Jesus and this was one of those. Philippians 1:21 “For me to
live is Christ, and to die is gain.” At first it confused me because it just sounded like
bad English (not the band). But after the 100th time hearing and reading it, it began
to make more sense.
“Ok Jesus I’m listening. I’ve always thought that the ‘life verse’ thing was a little
overdramatic but I guess you want me to take this one on as mine. My life is yours.
Everything I am is because of You and for You. Ok, giddy up. Let’s do this! Oh yeah
and to die is gain. Cool.”
Snap forward a month to sitting on my couch after coming home from the doctor’s
office with the news of my incurable cancer. For me to live is Christ and to die is gain.
This little life verse thing just got real. Could this invitation from Jesus still be true
with this newfound reality of cancer?
It had been 15 years since I reconnected with a college roommate and his wife Kara.
Kara is dealing with a fairly aggressive cancer and is somehow joyful in the middle of
it. There is no reason that she should be joyful even through her pain and stuggle,
but they as a couple are filled with Jesus. She was telling me about Jesus’ invitation
to her through this simple verse, (I’ll give you 3 guesses for what it was) Phil. 1:21
For me to live is Christ to die is gain. She talked about how hard it is to see this
cancer as anything good. How is leaving my kids a good thing? How is my death
gain? Then she said, “but I am learning that death cannot be gain unless for me living
is all about Jesus.”
It’s been 12 years of asking Jesus to reveal more of Himself so that my life would
actually re-present Him in life and in death. He hasn’t stopped answering that prayer.
What if Jesus is inviting us into this reality? What if this awareness is the sheltered
port into His rest and purpose?

Matthew 6

Do you know anyone who has actually taken Jesus up on His invitation in Matthew 6
where He says, “Consider the lilies of the field and the birds of the air. How much do
I take care of them...So don’t worry about what you eat or what you wear...Don’t
worry about tomorrow”
Think about it again, do you know anyone who has actually put Jesus’ invitation to
the test and lived to tell about it? I can name people I know that live like this on one
hand.
For the past few weeks I’ve been confronted with this question of utter trust. It may
even be more primal than trust, it’s desperate dependence. Do I have the gall to not
just dip my toe into Jesus’ promise but to fully lean into Him with the same reckless
abandon as a skydiver takes a step into mid air. You with me on this?
Touring as a new artist on a bill with 8 other well established artist isn’t the easiest
endeavor. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED my experience and was so honored to have
that role yet I just have a babe of wife and 4 kids to provide for back at home. The
way I make money in this line of work is through selling CDs, shirts, bracelets,
pictures of my beard and hopefully someday selling life sized mannequins of myself.
After I pay everyone their share I end up with a percentage of the sale. Ok- this is not
a class on business just a little background!
My road manager came up to me one night and said “ Tim you did great tonight. You
sold 82 CDs!” I responded with “ thanks for your help bro, but everyone else sells
millions of their CDs a night...I just want hit 100 one of these nights.” All the while I
am fighting the tendency to make this all about me and my kingdom. Jesus has not
commissioned me to sell CDs and merch in this next season. He has specifically
commissioned me to be a missionary to Christians and to lift of the revolution of
simply Jesus. (side note: that’s why I write an X on my wrist everyday reminding me
who’s Kingdom I work for and belong to! That’s another blog post...)
Back to the story: The busses rolled into Spokane, WA on a Sunday morning which
meant an early show, which meant low attendance for my portion of the show, which
meant less people to introduce to Jesus, which also meant low sales etc. Yup gross
math for a follower of Jesus.
On a run with a fellow tour mate, we talked through what it would look like to
actually trust Jesus with His promises in Matt 6. Do I have the cajones to say “Jesus,
you say to simply trust that you are God and I am not. You take care of the lilies and
birds and how much more do you love me and my family then those things. King
Jesus, as a citizen of Your Kingdom, today I will jump into your care and provision.”
Well that night, as I was playing, the arena was literally packed out and I sold 100
CDs. Not 93 or 105, but 100 CDs on the dot (note to self: next time aim higher when
dreaming with Jesus!)
I’m not yet ready to completely jump out of that plane into the providence of Jesus,
but I am getting closer everyday. What if Jesus is still alive and well and on the move?
What if He could be trusted with every aspect?

Awaken Joy

The years of a steady paycheck that covered all of our needs were great! Direct deposit was an extreme luxury, but this is not such a season. Yet how is it that in the most unstable of circumstances (financial, cancer, music career, 4 kids, starting a church gathering, etc) we’ve never had so much fun nor grown this much as followers of Jesus?
In the midst of crazy times, I’ve found that we seem to wrestle with a few decisions:
Either God is God........... or........... He is not
Either He is good........... or........... He is not
And our response is:
Either we give God the figurative hand........... or........... We lean into Him (John 15)

I dare say that through this desperation, Jesus has awoken JOY.